I am confused by my emotions

Why did I let out a little cheer and a fist pump when the Phillies escaped the 8th inning last night with a 6-2 lead? Could it be that I was actually rooting for Philadelphia to win? Oh fuck me! I am! After having gone on record against the Mets fierce rivals, I've realized my hatred for the asinine designated hitter has blinded my judgment and forced me to root for the National League entrant into the World Series. Or maybe I just desperately want to root for a team that wins for once, and with the Phillies up 3-1 in the series you have to like their chances. Possibly I'm just pretending to root for Philadelphia because EVERY team I root for loses, and this is my last, desperate ploy to get them to lose cause let's be honest here, FUCK Philadelphia. I'm so confused! In any rate, the Tampa Ray D**** Rays must win tonight in Philadelphia, something no visiting team has done so far this postseason. They must also defeat Phillies ace Cole Hamels, something else no opponent has been able to do this postseason. What does this all mean? Look for Tampa to win in a laugher.